Today was the beginning of school BBQ. I went determined to open up and meet new people–and must say, I’m surprised at how well I did.
Shy by nature, I usually rely on mutual friends to make acquaintances. But I was determined not to get back home without meeting someone new, and overcame that shyness–saying hi to not one, but three people. It doesn’t come naturally to me, so this is a big deal.
Hopefully some of these new acquaintances will become the people I think of years from now when I remember school. Some will remain people I met once and never again. But all left an impression I wouldn’t have gotten, had I not left my shell for a bit and said, “Hi! What’s your name?”
And of course, there’s got to be some Facebook stalking (it is the 21st century) and the tentative hello on chat before I can feel like a person is actually a friend now. It’s a weird process, but none of it would have started if I kept being the shy creature I am.
There isn’t anything wrong with being shy, unless I actually want to get out of the box and live life. This is step one.
I’m not where I’d like to be academically, and plan to do a lot better. I really mean it when I say that I’m excited for school to start. This BBQ was the beginning of another chance, so I even dressed well to meet my new teachers. It is online school with lots of labs and get-togethers, most of which I hope to join. I’m not where I’d like to be academically, so this year I will get myself there–with the guidance of Jesus, in whom I can do anything.
Even math–so look out, world!